Monday, 29 June 2009

Visit due at Clinic

Well its that time again, a drive to Sheffield, fluid splashing around from one rib to another and all to see how I am.

Do you think I will find out anymore about radiotherapy or tomotherapy, I bet I am still left out in the cold and come away knowing nothing more.

This weekend I slept and I mean slept, I went to bed about 10.30 on Saturday, I woke up at 11.30 am (just in time for a late breakfast). I had a quick shower and said to Hubby lets go out and off we went. His words before we got into the car were "Are you sure your up to this?" We got 2 miles down the road and turned around I felt a little sick. We came in and I crashed on the sofa, I raised my head at 4.30 and had a few mouth fulls of tea before crashing back out again. It was 6.30 when I finally woke up and managed to stay awake. Poor hubby had sat playing on his ds lite and didn't dare turn the TV on incase he woke me up (bless!).

At least I have caught up with my sleep for a few weeks.

Yes I still have pain (Acute pain is hard to say how bad as the painkillers keep it under wraps,) so that means ..yes I still take pain killers, Yes my chest still feels like an iron cage is attached to my rib cage and is too small for my body and yes I have started getting all my sensations back but if I touch these areas they are extremely tender. For some reason even my stomach is now tender, is this the stitches holding the diaphragm in place or is it something different.

I am extremely pleased to be alive and yet I still complain about pain! How can anyone possibly put up with me. I have outlived the predictions of dying I am still here and for all the complaining about pain and tablets I am really happy. Having read some people take such a long time to recover I should be over the moon that within 2 months I could go back to work and keep my hand in. I do think I did return a little too early in hindsight but I don't think it has left me with any long term problems.

We go through treatment so we can get on with our lives, yes our lives so why do we worry what the Doctors will say about overdoing it!

Promise I will let you know what happens on Wednesday.

Good luck to Alan, his tumour has reduced and fingers crossed he stays in remission.

Keep up the fight everyone.

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